i am not studying neither am i gng t study. cos its not getting in my BRAINNNN.
see. not tht i dont wanna try. i just cant. everyone's wrking so hardddd. oh well..

well, im having a nescafe drink now. BURP*

WHY IS MY THROAT STILL SO PERFECT?!
i wanna be voiceless. so fun. i ate so much junk food. and the ucler is nt doing anything. :/

i feel like puking. im so troublesome.


tell me why.

lush didnt get into top 3. but its okay(: what matters is you enjoy the feel, the groove, your passion(:
you guys did very well. alot of ppl said tht(:
only you can judge yourself.

slacked with mama g then took cab t newton.
unplugged night. eh, dont have the feel. very SIAN.
xw and me went t this hawker centre t have our dinner cum supper.
bryant came over t join us.
then home.

saw one damn cute guy. hee hee. xw say i se lang.
ma de, zhu de, gou de, ren de.

its not wad you see.

throat hurts. ulcer i think.

i let the cat out of the bag.
it got worst.

we're still strangers after all.

5n3. some were missing. (: loves-

millie and kakuu.

cin and me(:
su,farid. MUD!
millieeee.
lol. i tied them tgt.
the teacherssss

lovely couple:D
pris and me. wads with tht thing at the bottom right? oh, millie's hair-.-

this is the most handsome teacher. too small for you? click on the pic. lol. but he's not the one i like -beams-
my class with mrs ho(: last yr ):

yohoo. im back frm sport's day. hot hot weather damn hot. AIYER. green hs got the 2nd position.

SIAN. tday friday and im -shake head- not gng out. =[

i didnt know there are so many cute guys in lower sec. got one quite cute. yihan or smth.
MUAHAHA. eh, i dont mind taking younger guys lehhhh *smirk.

oops, kaku knows which teacher i LIKE the most. LOL. oops.

one of our PE teacher is the handsome among all. mr kaw, old liao la. always make fun of my 'HUH'. lolololololololol. xD

after sports, went to tm for lunch with millie,pris,kaku,cin,popiah and joyce.had long john. WAH LAO. i laughed non stop till i cry.
heart attack.
expression and i said expresSEN.

afer tht, we walked arnd.

"my bratherl gng forl al jornee and i wantl t brling him luckl"
"but therel onlyl enoughl forl onel bird."
"okayl"

('L' behind each word cos its their slang.)
guess wad advertisment is this. Wah lao. we imitate until the whole tm upside down.
and pris kissed popiah. LOL. lac ah. millie 'CUP' my breast and hold it for 5secs and i dont even know. WAKAKAKA.

laugh laugh laugh.
thats all FOLKS.

i saw you, i walked away.
when i turned back, you were gone.

roy just gave me colin and kero's blog.
i really admire their courage after reading.

even gays can be so loving. both are gd looking though. hahaa.
well, there's nth wrong for a boy and a boy being tgt. :/
for those who cant accept homos, jus shut up and stop giving so much comments.
respect others if u want ppl t respect u too.
world is unfair. thats not wad they want either. at least they carry on their life.

put urself in their shoes. some ppl might feel disgusted. uh, u can choose not t look at them.

well, its all about love.
good luck boys.

i know its impossible. no more second time.

MILLIE. i look tOoPiD wOrZz.
my kuku hair.

when i was still punk rock punk rock. LOL. \m/
HAHA. xw xw xw xw. i miss avl): thats darren, dion and dharni.
i miss sword):
XW, HAHA look how u used t be. LOL.u love this hair righttttttt.

wad im tyring t say is i miss my hair. i saw xw posted her photos and so i thought of mine too. LOLOL.

im so fucking pissed during art period. i did another layout for my final piece and wad tht mrs chan said something like, this is out of point. the skirt here blah blah yada yada.

FUCK YOU OKAY. why not you draw one for me and i just transfer straight t the board? (:
i fucking did 3layout alr. fucking tired know. and all SHE did is t walk arnd and SLACK.

i wanna be an art teacher in future.

everyone's on board and im still thinking wad t draw for my final. cmon, life is short.

yawn. got home frm millie's. supposed t study.... ended up, looking for the guy's pic. LOL.
and and millie's bro knows HIM! small world. oh, my kuku hair. ): hard said its UGLY.

erm, i needa bathe now. popiah,jen and i were drenched. HAHA. no choice. ran outta school in the heavy rain. damn fun. my shoes were soaked. and i was trembling in the bus. brrrrr....

mr kaw always make fun of my 'HUH'. pouts-

mid yr is coming. friday is sport's day. tuition tmr. awww. boring..


why do we always want something even more when we can't have it?

after perf.


aww. sweet. i wanna held it here too. LOL.

me and tapa!
the crazy ppl.
wad a pose. LOL.

LUSH.

tapa,lala,kim.
weehee. sorry xw! ):
baha.
siao lang. wear two caps. lol.
blah.

my camera sucks.

hi tapa. LOL.



LUSH in studio.

my hair is this short LOR. ):

didnt go t sch tday again. its a habit now.

i dreamt of my 'boyfriend'. omg.
i dreamt tht there's this huge shark swimming arnd spore.
and everyone is running for life! i dreamt of ee ling!
weird dreams though. den my 'boyfriend' is very lovingggg and handsome. HAHAHA.
awww. -smack! dream on.

met dee at city hall. went t get my bling bling belt! (:
den xw bought her snow cap. heh heh.

wenta newton for practice. all camera freaks. LOL.

jason drove us there. dance in the car. LOL.
it was held at the SAF yatch dunno where. around changi. WAAA. the sea WOO.
and there were free food. LOL. :DDDDDDD

den jason drove us t espl.
damn, on our way, he suddenly brake and all of us almost fly out sial.
HAHA. damn fun la. alamak.

on my way home, got this couple keep stare stare, say say, nb.
burn ur hair.
damn tired. sis kp liao. fuck sial.

shall uploads some of the pic tmr.

i see lighting, i hear thunder, i feel rain and i know everything.

levis comp this afternoon. YAY! LUSH GOT INTO THE GRAND FINAL! well done. muahmuah.
prac at bugis for tmr performance. den went t espl.
damn sway la. saw the police walking arnd.
nothing better t do.

OH YEA, jus cut my hair.
aiyo. beli beli shurt siol. - <=== this short.
so ugly): sniff-

and and im so excited for tmr performance! WEEHEE! hope nth crops up man. -prays.
hope the crowd is good, stage is also good. :D

that look.

shermin's slping. aww. how adorable.

i drank red bull. it makes me fly.

sports heat in the afternoon. we took part(:
me,millie,pris and ys. team 1. cin,popiah,jas,azimah team 2.
we got 2nd. sound so nice right? ( from the back)
ive nt been running since errr. 3yrs?
i was the last runner. dammit. millie and ys, both of u are fucking fast la PUT ME the last one!
nvm la. run for the sake of running. since its our last yr. win or lose, im glad we took part tgt. love you girls(:
i thought i was the last one. den i slowed down. didnt know there's another one behind me. LOLOLOLOLOLOL. im so happy. AHA. xD

oh ya. rained before our item. HAHA. sway until lao sai.
my thighs look like pig body. i just realised. nb, no wonder cannot run.
i feel so heavy when i run. LOLOL. okay blah.

prac after sports heat. wah. can die ah. lucky i got red bull=]
nway, gd luck LUSH for tmr's levis comp! OUSH!
and tht nabei company cheat my money. i paid SO MUCH and i cant use the studio.
lousy company. my port folio got mushroom liao lor. %*)*&@&

taste the blood. sweet.

tag replies.

hard: LOL. i tried alr. its tough. but still.... :/ WAIT. wad pick 20th april? wad wad? 0.0
iko: eh. yea man. i wanna see how stars like in the space! LOL.
jarel: heh. yea. hopefully.
bing: ): but im really hopeless now. :/ u take care too! =]
caron: you tagged the most. lol. i know. but like i said. no matter how hard i tried still fail. like wads the point? im so far back from others. i cant catch up with anything. :/

i just killed a puppy.

gosh. got a male or female person added me in msn.
asking me some weird stuffs. seriously, go and ask ur mother.
weird person.

i dont feel like studying alr. life has not been good lately.
i failed all my test. yes all. i cant cope with it now. ive s.s test tmr and im not gng t revise.
gonna fail anw. i wanna stop school. fuck my stupid brain.

and everyone's leaving me. this and that.

imissgongong):

oh yea, so what if i say , "alright. let's all stop this shit and continue as a friend."
sounds nice eh?

or "my bad my bad. im sorry. let's be friends again."
sound nicer?

u decide.

ive been busy on the mon and tue and i asked if she was able t come on wed.
okay. she has her own appointment and all and that shows THAT she doesnt want to perform anymore.
mon and tue ive my own stuffs too. do u even bother t call and ask? no.
and i told u that i'll update you when we're gng t prac.
she alr knew some part of the dance and i thought we dont need so much time.
thurs is your day. im not sure what's with wed and fri and sat. we have 3days t prac. im sure its enough. im sorry tht "okay dont dance alr" seem rude t u.
well, its normal reaction when i dunno why u cant prac on wed , fri and sat.

since she agreed with the girls. okay fine. the girls are always right.
now i am the bad one. r u ALL happy? YEA RIGHT? she didnt even hear this part of the story.
what's the point of saying now.

and GOOD FRIENDS? HAH. and why did she agree with you all? ohswell, i smell a rat.

now everyone is pointing at us. dont say nooooo. awww. how nice. and there will be more. (:

awsome dance prac this evening.

im lucky t have my previous crew, yutaki, ftc and lush now(:
mohoho. i wanna be a happy girl(:


wad a nightmare.

now i see. i understand and i know.

yes! rained -beams-

school was fine. as usual. sports heat this fri. MUAHA.
i cant believe im taking part. LOL.
cancelled today tutorial. wasnt in the mood.
guess i wont be gng t school tmr either.
wenta prac with lush this evening. ive learnt alot of things. (:

im not gonna care the past.
leave all you all want. say wad you want, think what u want. believe what u want.
we're always be the bad ppl.
there is always a story in both parties. up t you t listen t jus one party.
a leopard will nvr change it spots. accept for who we are.

life is unfair yet beautiful.

if today rains, meaning i can start all over again! :DDDD prays-

the hardest part is what t leave behind, it's time to let go(:

no more this word "BOYFRIEND" in my dictionary. (:

ignor the previous post.
it wasnt meant for him t come back.
it was how i was feeling tht moment.
now i know what is love.


love you back.

if only you listen just a little.
and stayed for a moment.
if only once you'd really look at me
and see who i really am.
if only once you'd really listen t me
and try t understand.
your words hurt and it got me crying.
i dont know wad t do
and dont know wad t say.
time cheated us once again.
i just want you t stay. im sorry.

xw, u look as if ure gng t kiss the guy in red. LOL.

loving this way-

I'm tired of watching me hurt you
I'm tired of being the tear drops on your face
I'm tired of loving this way

I'm tired of loving this way
I know your every weakness
I can find one in everything you say
I'm tired of loving this way

I'm tired of loving this way

I'm not what you really need
I'm not the one in your dreams
I can see it in your eyes
This aint the way it should feel
I dont know how we got here
Love is no longer blind

If that is just how it is

Can we go on like this
Oh baby, what do you say

I'm tired of loving this way

I'm tired of loving this way

**
I'll set your heart free
and if your mine you'll come flying back someday
But, I'm tired of loving this way

I'm tired of loving this way
Well, I'm taking you with me
Like a room in my heart you'll have your place
I'm tired of loving this way

I'm tired of loving this way

Repeat Chorus-**

I'm tired of loving this way
I'm tired of loving this way yeah
I'm tired of loving this way
I'm tired of loving (this way)

this song suits me alot. :D :) : :/ :( :C

indoor stadium this evening! it was really awsome!!
street fusionz got the first. cool. 35thousand? :/
CLICK 5! omg. but i couldnt get my cam in. TSK! ); cutecutecute! haha!

anw, ate at kfc with xw.
window shopping. yeah. thanks girl for shopping with me! (:
ate BEN&JERRY ICRE-CREAM! eat t make myself feel better. :D
wanted t go home but it was still early so we deicided to slack.
we talked ALOT. one and a half hr. LOL. (:

i didnt know its so easy for you t say those words.
*missing someone you lost isn't the hard part.
knowing you once had then is what breaks your heart.

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now something new has come. i cant make up my mind.
im afraid it might be a trap again.

now, tear everything apart.

im sick and tired of it. this is not what i want.

out with millie and yaya. supposed to go over t far east t check on our class tee.
but couldnt make it time. so had NYDC. wah. first time i finished my meal. LOL.
caught iceage2! muahaha. its funny. very cute show.
den chilled at coffee club.
gossip bout the guys. yah. we got the same thinking and concept on guys. LOL.
took cab home. then got this old man stared at yaya and "WAHHH!" DIAOOO.
lol. okay. that's all for today.


why is she so lucky. :/

people changes.
ive alr apologised and thought things will go back the same.
i was wrong.
now i see the true colors in you or maybe everyone.
i can forgive, but i will nvr forget.

days of not meeting up, i thought it will bring us closer.
but it got worst instead.

youre disappointed in me. so am i.

on the phone with bishen jus now. HAHA.
miss him man. in class without him, chaos.

i miss4n3 though. the laughter. how we disturbed the teachers.
how bishen ROAR. MUHAHHAA. at mr ngoh's face. LOL.
he's indeed my sister la. helped me to release stress.
sighh. meet up soon sisterS. tht julian also make me stress.
cos he's smart and always study. make me more stress.LOL.

aight. nights all.

i just dont understand why.

sometimes, i really dont know wad u want la. nabei.

oh fucK, now everyone's happy eh. no more chance.
man, stop wasting my time.

and oh fucK that grp of cheerleaders. go and practice "HEY.HAH.HOO" la.
hope u bang the ceilings and practice HARD for ur "TWINKLE twinkle lil star" dance.



god,stop giving me all the false hope.
dont make me dislike you.

and sorry jarel for giving u attitude nowadays. :c loblob-

town with xw for the bboy jam.
hannahhhhhh~ jarel got first, got free phone liao lor.
ask him buy ice cream for me also TSKTSKTSK. MUAHHAA.
KIDDING LA HOR. lulululu.

den slacked at espl the whole night.
tmr still needa wake up SO EARLY. :C

okie dokie. nights all. kisskiss-

we all got so excited for nothing.
prac tday. but some of them like hack care la.
there's no team spirit. not untied.
i damn sian of some of them alr la.
say alr in the end also like tht.
now im trying t change then... forget it.


dream on, emi.

quarrelled with the malays this morning.
the moment i stepped into class, my table was gone.
i saw millie sitting the other side.
damn angry la. u guys didnt even inform me changing of seats.
and THOSE who got their seats one of cos say co-operate, keeping quiet la.
ma de.

bad hair day. bad weather. bad temper. BLAH.


i dont wanna bother anymore.

shot right thru; tears fell.
disappointment.
the pain inside.

close your eyes and feel the rain.

things are not gonna be the same anymore.

i miss u so.

LOLOLOLOL. deleted the post. if not millie and shir start laughin at me alr.
ma de.

ARGHHH!!! when can my hot temper stop?!

emi, eat shit la. ma de. ARGH!

i can only stare and feel envy. there's nth more i can do.

happy april fool day.

jarel is so sweet tday. maybe due t the rain. even sweeter. (: lob yo.

blah blah yada yada.

stomach has not been a dear lately.
she's upset.
having meiji yamyam biscuit now. :d yummy.

ants are coming on their way. fuck man. com is full of ants.
some wont even die.